Ok so it’s been a bit since we last “spoke”. It’s by far the longest break I’ve ever taken from my blog. I wouldn’t say it was necessarily intentional but eventually turned that way. The last part of the year my focus changed in large part due to a big personal loss. People deal with loss in so many different ways and I suppose the way I chose to deal with it at the time was keeping to myself (typical) and becoming submerged in my family/home life. I wasn’t really in the “sharing” mood so to speak. When you lose someone it leaves you with this empty feeling. You may go about your day to day activity going through the motions but the feeling or lack there of is always there right beneath the surface. You especially feel their absence during the holidays when being with your family is a given and they’re no longer sitting at their spot at the dinner table. I have always said that when someone passes that life must go on, which is both a good thing and also a very hard thing to accept. So, that coupled with the madness of the holidays and I sorta lost my way a bit.
There were however two highlights during this time with the first being the arrival of my handsome nephew Joseph William. His arrival came at a much needed time and reminded us all of the beauty in the cycle of life. He’s now two months old and seeing his little face brings me great joy.
The second highlight was my daughter Mia’s first performance in the Nutcracker. Can you say proud mom?! She originally didn’t want to do it out of fear from being on stage in front of that many people. Fortunately, after weighing it out she eventually decided it was something she really wanted to do (maybe with a little nudging). Seeing how confident she became by the end of the last show made me so happy for her. Beyond anything else I wanted this to be a good experience for her and let it be a lesson of what can happen when you put yourself out there and try something you’re scared of. I’m in 40’s now and just barely grasping this concept. The icing on the cake was having so many of our family and friends there to show their love and support.
A little blurry but that’s Mia 2nd from the left standing right next to Clara.
Mia as a Flower fairy. She was also a winter fairy.
An unforgettable moment!
We’re only a couple weeks into the new year and so far it’s been pretty good. Right after typing that last sentence I can’t help but think….yikes don’t jinx yourself. Why do we do that?! We’re so scared to make a statement like that for fear that something bad “might” happen. I’m really trying to make an effort to stop doing that and give myself permission to enjoy things and not wait for the other shoe to drop. There is so much in life we can’t control but there are certainly things we can control and that’s our way of thinking and how we react to things. Whoa…just went off on a tangent there. Maybe that’s a post for a later time.
Anyway, back to the new year….I was lucky enough to start my 2017 in beautiful Lake Tahoe. There is something so magical about being in the snow and breathing in the fresh, crisp mountain air. Can I spend my new year like that every year?! We were blessed with lots and lots of snow. So much in fact that we had to stay an extra day because road conditions were bad and it was safer to wait it out. I will say I think the altitude made the kids more crazy than usual and we didn’t get a decent nights sleep till we came home. I guess they didn’t get the memo that we were on vacation.
This kid loves the snow. Must be the Norwegian in him.
I’ve since gone back to work and the kids are back to school. As much as I love taking a break from the daily routine, there’s also something so comforting in being on a routine. Agree? So it’s been more of the same but I’ve consciously made a decision to shake things up a bit to help make my life a bit more fulfilling. The definition of insanity is doing something over and over again and expecting a different result. Well if we don’t like something then we need to change it right?! Overall, I’ve recognized that I’m happier when I’m productive. Although the idea of laying around watching TV sounds good in theory it’s not what makes me feel good. It makes me feel good to get my house in order, cook a nice dinner for my family, make home improvements, hanging with my kids, connecting with family/friends…the list will continue to grow. As it turns out when I’m happy it makes for a more peaceful home. Yes happy wife happy life is a very true statement.
One of my favorite gifts I received for Christmas from my sister was the Happier 2017 Gretchin Rubin desk calendar. Anyone who knows me knows I love Gretchin Rubin. She’s the author of The Happiness Project that I spoke about here. My themes (can’t pick just one) for the year are Health, Love & Patience. Sounds pretty generic but I have specific objectives for each one. I’m pretty certain these will evolve as the year goes on.
Hope everyone’s 2017 has gotten off to a good start!